And so there's a huge gap in my life....

Yes, I will miss The Only Way Is Essex and I’m pretty much counting down the days until the next series, but WOW what a series!!

Favourite bits have got to be:

Bozo: more of him next series please. When Lauren was DJ’ing at Marks pool party and he was stood on the decks…CUTE!

The Kirk vs Maria fight: as much as I love both of them, god Kirk was a tosser! ‘You’re just an extra’ was a little below the belt for someone who was only trying to stick up for her best friend, and making her cry at Harry’s party was really unnecessary. Despite this, I have watched the clip countless times. Brilliant viewing.

Nanny Pat dressed as the Queen: Harry’s party was full of weird and very wonderful fancy dress ideas (apart from Mark…make some effort boy!) but Nanny Pat as The Queen stole the show. I mean come on, who else could she have been??

Gemma’s sales techniques: as soon as she walked onto the car forecourt in the attempt at selling Kirk a car, I knew I’d love her. Yes so she wears her heart on her sleeve (maybe the apple pie was a bit too far!) and she got far too attached to Mick too quickly, but then again that’s a girls prerogative and I’m sure we’ve all been there. I know I have, and I don’t think I coped with it with quite as much dignity as she did!

The Proposal: maybe the most unromantic, unspectacular proposal I’ve ever seen, but everybody took a moment to think ‘maybe he’s changed’ when Mark popped the question to Lauren after finding out she’d had her tattoo removed. Follow this with a string of silly arguments, him acting like a chauvinistic pic, being over protective about her leaving the house yet won’t have her picture on his bedroom wall, and of course the fantastic finale to season 2 with the ‘lets push Mark in the pool at his own party and everyone will cheer’ moment. More drama between those two than all the soaps put together. I cannot wait to see the wedding.

Sam embarrassing herself. Again. Telling Mark she loved him when he’s just proposed to Lauren made me feel both embarrassed for her and sad for her in equal measures. I know what it feels like to be ditched in the same way, but she could have kept her dignity. Not saying it wasn’t great viewing though.

Glamping: somebody take me???

Arg’s belly: no carbs before marbs Arg. Step away from the macaroons and go for a run. Marks constant jibes about Arg’s weight, and Lydias attempt to get him to a slimming class clearly have not made much difference as poor Arg is still carrying the pounds. Maybe next series he’ll have transformed into a greek god?

Joey Essex. I appreciate this isn’t a ‘moment’ but I couldn’t pick one. From his invention of the word ‘reem’ (and I’m happy top admit I overuse this A LOT) to his date with Sam at the dump with his Thomas the Tank Engine yogurts. Oh and don’t forget his trainers two sizes too small for him so they don’t get creases in ‘tall and reem’. His reem parties need to be making many appearances in season 3 though, and please let me comeee???? Oh and I nearly forgot the hairdryer/blowdryer situation. Yes Joey, they’re the same thing. He may ask to many questions ‘You having fun yea, you loving it? Fun though aint it? Did you enjoy yourself’ but he’s SO cute and maybe gets better looking every episode? But no Joey, you’re not part Spanish! ‘Ola!’

Bank Holiday Pt 2....

Now, I'd love to say that this Bank Holiday was a wild one but, well, it wasn't. Been feeling rubbish and a bit down (missing a certain someone who's buggard off to Newquay which naturally means we have less communication that we did when he lived around the corner).

I went out Thursday in a horrible denim dress that for some reason I thought would be a good idea to buy but I ended up feeling seriously self conscious all night so will be relegating to wear with a cardigan and sandals in the daytime (not to self, I don't do strapless).

So Friday was the Royal Wedding and, I'll happily admit, I cried. Twice. Only a tear in the eye moment, but still an emotional one. I thought Kate looked sensational, and was so glad she went for McQueen. I literally squealed with excitement when I caught a glimpse of Sarah Burton helping Kate into the car outside the hotel!! Also, all credit to The Queen, colour blocking like a pro in yellow. And of course, Pippa. Stole the show in her dress, with a figure to die for!!!

Speaking of figures, my detox started today, and I celebrated the last supper with a 4 plater all you can eat Chinese buffet. But all the fun's ended and I'm on a serious green tea diet.....I am a huge fan of green tea normally, but usually just standard or with a hint of lemon...

I've decided to get a little bit more adventurous though and raided Morrisons tea aisle for variations...

I have to say, White Tea is incredible. Not such a strong flavour as green tea, but still got the same health qualities. I'm yet to try any of these fruity green teas but I'm hoping for a success!

I also got a bag of ground Flax Seeds to put into yogurt or over my cereal in the morning to hopefully prevent my 10.30am cravings of anything and everything edible. Not sure how I'm going to take to these but I'll try anything once and at the bargain price of £1.75 who can say no???

So anyway I did a car boot sale on Sunday morning and made a successful wedge of cash which is going on a tank of petrol with a fair bit left over, that I won't lie was spent in H&M today on this....

Skirt was £7.99 and for those days where I can't bear to wear tights to work!! It's just the right length to wear bare legs to work, and will look cute with a little white cami and some tan lofa 's or boat shoes. 

This picture really doesn't show this dress off to it's full beauty....seriously stunning for £30! I know I said I didn't do strapless but the way this sits is all ruffled around the top so gives the illusion of a bigger chest so I can wear a suitable bra haha!! It's pale pink and black, again you can't quite tell in this dress. So I have the beautiful dress, all I need now is a hot man to take me out on a hot date.....although chance would be a fine thing! 

And what girl could be without a few bandeau tops now the summer is here. I've got so many drop arm sleeve tops that need a bit more than just a bra underneath....so I've always been a massive fan of these!! Two for £6.99 is always a winner!

And what did I wear for my final supper and my shopping trip...?

New boat shoes from office, with my H&M drop crotch trousers (which I managed to get egg fried rice down....) and a Topshop black cami, and my new cropped bleach denim jacket I got in Birmingham on my shopping trip with the girls the other day. And of course, my new favourite Hot Chilli Rimmel lipstick. 

Other than all this, it's been a pretty relaxing weekend...and so the detox starts here. Well, after watching Up with Dad (who claim's it's the saddest film he's ever watched. No, genuinely, he's almost in tears...)

I blame the heat...

On the amount of shopping I want to do! I'm setting myself a challenge starting today. I'm giving up shopping. Yes you heard. No more clothes shopping for me AT ALL (apart from essentials like tights, pants, the odd vest top from Primark) and no unnecessary purchasing of makeup (and by this I mean no lunchtime trips to the Mac counter!). I'll only replace if necessary, and under NO circumstances will I decide I need a new nail varnish (because let's face it, I don't).

So to make up for it, I have treated myself over the past few days. There's the new handbag I mentioned in the previous post (although I did need this!) for £25 from H&M, and the grey Office sandals were my uniform shoes for work so I didn't actually have to pay for these (LOVES a pair of free shoes!). I've wanted the hightop pink converse for ages, and now we've had some nice weather I thought they'd get worn so I purchased them....I'm actually sat in the garden right now wearing them with a pair of denim shorts and a black and pink flowery croptop from New Look about 4 years ago!

The boat shoes from Office were a 'treat' and a bit of an impulse buy. I'd actually seen some boat shoes in Next ages ago when Mum dragged me in there to look for some brogues for her, and I'd ummm-ed and ahhh-ed about them for a while, but these Office ones are so much nicer. Can't wait to crack these out with my rolled up chino's and plain black vest, or with a black maxi and cropped denim jacket!

So here's to day one of the no-shopping test (I'd like to point out how I started off on the easiest day ever....Easter Sunday when there are no shops open!) Wish me luck!!

Bank Holiday Pt 1....

Has been just as I'd anticipated. Messy.

Thursday at work I wore my H&M shorts with my new Primark top and shoes. I absolutely had to get this top it was SO cute!

Thursday night was full of wine, vodka and lots of laughs with the girls:

(l-r) Steph had her new Forever 21 dress on with tan shoes from Evans and a belt borrowed from yours truly. Kellie had wedges from New Look (her dancing shoes apparently) and flowery shorts from H&M (short envy). Sarah had her new dress from Zara she bought in Birmingham, and her gorgeous mary jane heels from New Look. I wore my River Island flowery skirt and 3 year old River Island wooden heels that are still going strong today!

On Friday I went into Leicester shopping with mum and dad, and went out for dinner (I'll be honest with you, I only went for the free food!!) I did buy a new handbag but that's only because I didn't have a bag to go with the above outfit so I went straight to River Island to buy a new one (disappointingly didn't have one I liked so ended up in H&M for a HUGE tan number that I'm a bit in love with for the bargain of £25!!) 

Anyway I wore a maxi dress from Primark, tan sandals from New Look and a plaited tan belt that Mum had free on a pair of trousers!! I went a bit over board on bangles that are all a mixture of Primark and New Look, and my feather earings from Topshop. The sunglasses were from a random show in New York that I LOVE! Absolutely classic shape, will never date. 

On Friday night I went to a party with Steph but kept is casual with my new Jeggings from Zara, a white crop from Topshop, and my amazing coral wedges from New Look (thought I'd test drive them on a night where I didn't have to be up all night dancing, and I have to say they were a success!!)

Got it all again tonight as well....another night in HTC with Steph...now what to wear....

Get your glad rags on.....

I need this girls night out so badly….me and the three besties are off into Hinckley Town Centre (more commonly known as HTC) to drink a horrendous amount of rose and vodka, cause some mischief and dance the night away. I don’t know why I’m quite so excited about a night out in Hinckley (usually it ends in some sort of disaster or is just generally rubbish), but I do seem to have a positive track record of Easter Thursdays! Also, progress has been made from previous post, and I am REALLY hoping he’ll be out tonight. I need to prove he can trust me, and I also need to remind him how good it all used to be.

Anyway so now of course comes the fun part. Currently sitting downstairs are Kellie, Sarah and Steph, eating pizza and drinking their 3^rd glass of God only knows what, outfits hanging up in my wardrobe ready to get glamorous later. We’ve got a mixture of cute summer dresses from Zara and classic navy one shouldered numbers from Forever 21. I’m not sure what I’m going for yet. I’m thinking a skirt (maybe the River Island flowery one from a while back that still hasn’t had a wear) or the new black Forever 21 skirt. Either way I’ll team it with my signature over the knee socks and huge curly hair, get my Eylure double thickness lashes glued on, and a squirt of Burberry perfume (I’m going to need some good luck tonight either way the night goes!)

Wish me luck, I’ll have pictures on asap I promise!

And here come the feelings.....

Having a few man issues and really need to vent my frustration! Anybody else got that one person that you always go back to, that one person that is probably the most perfect guy in the world for you, yet somehow nothings ever really happened? I’ve got myself one of those. We’ve been on and off for years (literally, I think it’s been about 4 years!) sometimes publicly, sometimes not. I’d probably say he was one of my best friends, and I also fancy the pants off him. He was the one that got me into dubstep (some of my friends still haven’t forgiven him for that…!) and I’d probably say over 20% of the songs on my ipod have some relevance to how I felt about him at some point in time. I’ve even got a text saved that he send me a couple of summers ago that said: ‘chillin in the garden listing to the streets with the lads, this day can only be topped off by seeing my girl later’. Massive CRINGE but also kind of sweet that I still have this? So what do you do when said boy comes back into your life and tells you that he still has feelings for you.

I wonder if it is actually possible to be with someone when you’ve been through so much apart? Some of the things I’ve done I am certainly not proud of, there’ve been tears and I’ve also been pretty happy in one relationship that ended badly but I do still sort of miss. I don’t think I’m even slightly the same person as I was back then, yet I still have exactly the same feelings as I did when we met way before I started uni. I still get moths (butterflies….sorry private joke) and I still always want to ring him and sing down the phone when a certain song comes on the radio.  

And now there’s suddenly a big fat elephant in the room and I don’t dare mention us or what’s going to happen with us now, which is pretty stupid considering I don’t want to loose him to someone else again. I’d love nothing more than for him to turn around and say lets start again, from the beginning, take it slow and see what happens. If only I could open my big mouth that I can never usually keep shut, and say something….

On a slightly different note, here’s a few outfit posts from the past few days.

For work: top is a man's with the sleeves cut out from Primark, shorts are Topshop and shoes are Vans from Office

Went out for dinner Sunday night: shirt is Primark ages ago, jeans are Miss Selfridge and Wedges are my new ones from Forever 21

Work yesterday: Shoes tights belt and dress all from Primark. 

Palazzo pants looking a bit see-through in the top picture there!! Oooops! Vest is topshop, jewellery is all Miss Selfridge, Palazzo pants are Primark and Jacket is H&M. 

Right I need to shower, tan and sleep off all these feelings I'm having, I'm sure it's not healthy....

So about the teeth...

I'm not sure if this is just camera trickery but HOW white do my teeth look in this?? Thank you Blanx and Pearl Drops Hollywood smile.... alright CHEESY smile!